I CAN do it

I am : HAPPY

I decided today that I AM happy about the way things are going with my training. For about a week there I was fairly tired all the time, and I didn't have the complete focus that is required to sustain this level of exhertion. What was missing was an element of HAPPINESS. I used to allow HAPPINESS to come to me passively, never sure when it would arrive, but always glad when it did. I see now that such a lifestyle is misleading. I must decided to be HAPPY. It must be a conscious effort, otherwise those moment of bliss will be sporadic and disconnected. My physical training is easily measurable (body fat%, mileage, weights lifted, etc...) but my mental fitness is not quite as objective. I have to remember:

1. All results are my own, and only I can take responsibility for them.
2. I do not train to maintain, I train to improve. To do that, then, today I must do something I've never done.
3. This lifestyle is one that I enjoy, that I love, and despite its hardships, its rewards far surpass my other ways of living.

I've had trouble, so far, imagining myself living like this for the rest of my life. Better to admit that. In order to combat any urges that might arise to quit (which I DON'T want), I will once in awhile post a blog like this. One wherein I reaffirm my decision to live a life that is somewhat at odds with those of my friends.

Miles Since 4/23/05: 207

posted by Lord Alex @ 9:39 AM